First Trimester woes

Today I have cried probably 4 different times. Its unbelievable how emotional I am.  Going into this pregnancy, I had no clue how sick I would be.  I have felt pretty awful.  Some days are good. Today is not.  I woke up feeling ok but ever since breakfast have felt worse and worse.  I tried snacking on some pineapple, but it almost instantly came right back up.  My house is a wreck and I have 3 loads of laundry waiting to be folded.  The guilt of not being able to be the Mom that I want to be makes it all worse.  I know someday I will be able to feel healthy, and energized and be a happy, fun mom again.  I know ill be able to be exercise which I miss so much, and be strong again.  I know someday these past few months will see like a memory, but today it all feels very heavy.  On the bright side, my kids are so resilient.  They seem to keep loving me and being happy despite the crumby mom they have had the past few months.  I really love them.  Sometimes I can't believe how much I love them.  They are my entire world.  Which why I keep doing this I supppose..